This week was pretty crazy. A lot went down and for me it was a rollercoaster of emotions. Bri and I talked for a short while before she left for training. She had told me that the party was pretty fun. She had so many people come to visit and felt very supported. Bri told me that my grandpa had said some really sweet things to her that made her and a few other people around them start to cry. Bri checked in to Ripley on Tuesday morning at 7:30 and with the few text messages she has sent, it sounds like it has been pretty good so far. I am hoping to chat with her today to find out more and then I'll update the blog with more information.
(picture above is my friend Diane and I at graduation)This week was pretty tough in that it all hit me that she is leaving. I have found that I have gone through the stages that people go through when they've lost a loved one. I know Brianna is still alive- but I think it is the same for people who have a loved one who is being deployed. This week entailed a lot of crying and guilt. I was sad that Bri couldn't be here yesterday to see me unofficially graduate from my program. Then I realized all the things that I missed for her and I have felt so guilty for not being there for her in her joys and pains.
On a little lighter note. I have completed my teaching program (yesterday/Friday). I am so glad to be done. I love my classrooms that I was in but am glad that the me sitting in a classroom part is over. My students and teacher were so great to me! They made this really cute advice book for me! It is hilarious! just a few examples- don't yell at your students, don't give homework and make sure you have a big eraser!
Just one more thing- I have decided to write a book (children's). I have thought about how hard it has been for me to deal with Brianna having to leave and can only imagine how hard it is for children to understand what is going on or for those who haven't even met their parent. I plan on gearing the book towards children but I think it will be fitting for many people. However, I need some input from others. So if you have someone in the military and would like to share your story and a picture, I would love that. Even if you know someone as a neighbor or someone you know is dealing with the deployment of a loved one and they don't know about this blog, if their willing to share I'll take it. I am thinking about the title and I think I'm going to call it "This is My Solider" or "Letters to My Solider" maybe i'll write two books. If you would like to share please email it to megbrilauer@gmail.com . Thanks for your help.
*Note to Bri-
Hey Girlie! I did it, can you believe it? Now you will get to come and visit my classroom! I've been missing you a ton! I hope all is going well for you right now. I can't wait to get your call and hear all about what is going on. I love you lots!
Love, Megs
P.S. thanks for listening to me vent the other day!
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